Voices From Within

2012!!

2011-12-31T23:29:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

picture taken at Tokyo Disney Sea~

2011-11-26T00:05:00.000+08:00

ARGHHHHH!!!!

So FREAKING NOISY EVERYDAY!!!

why can't you just leave me alone!!

sometimes I wonder why the hell I go back home for when I can't even have some peace for a FREAKING DAY!!!

can't even just hang out in my room

what the f*** is wrong with you!!

I REALLY AT MY LIMIT ALREADY!! I just feel like punching the wall already

How did I manage to survive for 21 years??

Short Update

2011-10-12T13:51:00.000+08:00

Haven't been updating my blog recently although I kept telling myself to do it..

Since uni starts like 2 weeks ago, I feel like I've been doing 4 weeks worth of work. Its been non-stop meetings and discussion of projects plus time seems to past really fast these days.

Had this really important group design project which actually carries 40 credits! Been doing research and trying to come out with a proper design for the wind harvester that my group is doing but couldn't due to time constrains.

Eh..I still have house chores and club project to handle okay!

Since IEM Student Chapter is planning to organize a joint career's fair project with a few universities, my weekends are occupied with meetings with other universities for this project..

well..work is work..

time to go..gotta catch up on studies

ciaoz~

Chords of Strength

2011-08-23T16:21:00.000+08:00

Did you know that David Archuleta actually wrote a book?

The minute I saw this, it's a must for me to have it. After all, how can I not read the book he wrote? In fact it has really good reviews as well.

Basically it is about his childhood memories and what he had gone throughout his life to get to where he is today. It's strongly based on following your dreams and do what ever it takes to archive that one thing you ever wanted to do but couldn't due to many obstacle.

It's a really good book and I recommend it to those who love to read and of course his fans as well. I never really like non-fiction books but after I pick this up, I was hooked in just the 1st few pages. It is really interesting and fun to go through his life story and there are a bit of humour here and there as well. It is quite motivational as well and it also make you think that pursuing that very one dream that I always want to have seems easy as well.

So what are you waiting for? Quickly get a copy now!

It has been certified that it is interesting even for non-readers XD

ciao~

My newest addition!!

2011-08-22T10:17:00.000+08:00

Yes, my newest addition into my 'cute guys' list aka star crush. :)
Ever since I started 'worshipping' k-pop, my list just keep increasing non-stop..

At first it was Kim Bum

Then Jang Geum Suk

Then Jung Yong Hwa

And now..NICKHUN!!

Ever since I watch more and more shows featuring 2pm members, my eye were glued to him. (What to do, too free at work liao)

He's so CUTE, I just want to pinch his cheeks!

ciao~

David Archie concert + rants~

2011-08-16T11:52:00.013+08:00

Hello again! lolz..

after dunno how many weeks, I'm here to blog about the 1st 2 things on my list..and I'm actually doing it in the office so there won't be many picture except those in my facebook and other sites.

well, practically a month ago, as you guys know David Archuleta came down to Malaysia for his 1st ever concert!

aww...ain't he cute?

and as I mention in my earlier post as well, with me(and Matthew) being stingy, we bought the cheapest tickets.

As shown in the seating plan above, I'm kinda far from the stage..but at least the stadium is small..still can see a bit..haha and luck seems to be on our side as all of us got upgraded to the RM 190 seating as there are not many people who purchase it.

went there immediately after work and meet up with Matthew at midvalley. As usual the KTM always make me worry as it did not arrive on time. But luckily we got an okay seat, not towards side and not towards the center either.

The worst part was:

Matthew: Hey, did you bring your camera? Cuz I didn't mine from Canada.

Me: What? I forgot to bring mine as I was late this morning!

Matthew: You stupid girl. How can you not bring one?

but luckily there's such thing as phone camera..even if mine is a 8 mega pixel with lousy zoom function but good HD recording system.

The view of the stage before the concert, excuse the bad photo quality, after all its only a phone..lol

The next few photos are taken from Sony Music Malaysia

The opening act was done by Hao Ren

As much as I love to smash his face(no offence to his fans out there), I couldn't as he's far away~

I never like him anyways ever since he was in ASQ, Battleground and back to ASQ. Probably due to him have a big face problem issue.

After a while,

The main star!! Ran out singing Stomping the Roses!

Set lists:

Stomping The Roses

The Other Side of Down

A Little Too Not Over You

Love Don't Hate

Something 'Bout Love

Everybody Wants To Rule The World (Cover of Tears For Fears)

My Kind of Perfect

Elevator

A Thousand Miles (Cover of Vanessa Carlton)

Falling Stars

Touch My Hand

Stand By Me (Cover of Ben E King)

Everything and More

Zero Gravity

Encore:

Heaven (Cover of Bryan Adams)

Crazy (Cover of Gnarls Barkley)

Crush
My favourite for the night:

Falling stars

A thousand miles

Everything and more

Heaven

Matthew's favourite:

Crush (kept asking for it)

I just love it when he's on the keyboard!

I have a thing with guys playing the piano. Dunno why but I find them attractive..(only certain ones)

All in all it is an awesome night and I enjoyed screaming at the same time hanging out with Matthew another time before he goes back.

The best part of all, when David started singing, at the same time, I started to fall in love with him all over again which make me regret not buying the VVip ticket.

A picture after the concert (excuse the low quality)

wanted to take one before the concert but due to somebody, ended taking it after the concert, showing my messy look hmph!

A few weeks after that, Matthew went back to Canada..(awww so sad..) Didn't manage to hang out with him that often due to Intern. But I had fun hanging out with him anyway.

Matthew! you should come back often and don't forget to bring me stuffs from there every time!..haha

till the next time
ciaoz~

2011-08-04T08:17:00.002+08:00

Here I am again doing a short update on what I'm gonna blog about next...haha..just to keep you guys excited..(if anybody actually reads it) :)

so anyway there are a few things that has been on my mind nudging me to blog right now but since I've got my hands full with work, I'll probably start during the weekend..

If I'm not addicted to the time management game I'm playing now which keep my hands off everything else except playing..haha

Basically here are the list of the few things I wanna blog about:

1. David Archuleta's concert (just a short post about how starstruck I am..)
2. About my friend who is going back to Canada tomorrow (aww...I'm so gonna miss him XD)
3. About the new stuff I bought online (If it comes on time..)
4. Work

hmn..so basically that's on my list right now..not sure whether I can complete it all in 2 days but will try too..

and finally..

THANK YOU TO ALL THOSE WHO READ MY BLOG!!!! although there is nothing interesting about it

ciao~

David Archuleta

2011-07-22T13:21:00.002+08:00

We are pleased to announce that David Archuleta will be touching down on KLIA on Monday, 25th of July at 12.50pm via Vietnam Airlines flight 757 from Ho Chi Minh. David will also be making an appearance at Fahrenheit 88 on Monday, 25th of July 2011 at 8pm onwards for an autograph session with fans!

David will only be signing the concert tickets bought during the autograph session. For those who have not bought the concert tickets yet, you can buy the tickets during the event and get it signed personally by David.

David will be back in Kuala Lumpur for a full concert, organized by Sony Music Entertainment Malaysia, on Tuesday, 26th of July 2011, 8pm at Stadium Negara! The opening act will be our very own local singer, Hao Ren.

Ticket pricing is at RM300 for VIP, RM230 and RM190 for numbered seating, and RM150 and RM90 for free seating (All prices shown excludes RM3 ticket handling fees). Tickets are also made available through Ticket Charge (www.ticketcharge.com.my) and AirAsia RedTix outlets (www.AirAsiaRedTix.com).

Limited & special VVIP tickets are also available for sale. These VVIP tickets not only entitles you to the best seats in the house but also comes with a T-Shirt, an autographed photo, a poster and the Asian Tour Edition of “The Other Side of Down” album PLUS a special invite to a Sound Check Party with David!

There are only limited places available at the Sound Check party, so hurry and get yourself the special VVIP ticket today. For more information or to purchase these limited VVIP tickets, kindly call Sony Music’s office 03-6207 9898.

The Asian Tour Edition of “The Other Side Of Down” is a CD+DVD album which includes 5 brand new songs & a lyrics booklet for only RM49.90. As for the DVD portion of the album, it includes 4 karaoke videos for you to sing along to your favourite David Archuleta songs. The album is already available in all music stores nationwide.

For more information, log on to www.facebook.com/sonymusicmy.

when I first read this, I was damn excited..then suddenly, this sentence caught my eye,

David will only be signing the concert tickets bought during the autograph session.

I was like O.O..what!?!?

how can you do this!!! oklah I know I can't really comment much seeing that although I'm his fan but I never actually own any of his albums except the Christmas Edition being stingy, I even bought the cheapest ticket. Actually I don't mind spending more for the VVIP but really tight on budget seeing that I now only earn RM 500 a month for my internship.

But still, this is really not fair, if I know I'll wait till now only buy..how could Sony Music do this!!! that its not fair to those who bought his tickets earlier..might as well wait till the last minute for this kind of news to 'pop' out next time..

That is why among all the other singers, I really look up to Wang Lee Hom the most..although I not really his 'great' fan unlike my sister. He would actually insist on signing every one of his fan's cd's or concert tickets with the maximum of two per person. Imagine that he have to sign for thousand over fans and with each of them having two items for him to sign.

I really salute him..

anyway can't wait for Archie's concert next Tuesday!..kinda excited..

ciao~

PS: my sis will be damn shocked to hear that Hao Ren will be doing the openning act..anyway I never like him as well..

2011-06-22T13:11:00.004+08:00

Basically here I am just to provide you people a short update as you can see although I hereby promise myself that I would revive this blog again after my exams and fail to do so.

So here I am typing from my workplace computer to just state why I can't fulfill my promise.

CUZ...

I'M DOING MY INTERNSHIP!!

yes as it says, today is actually my third day doing my internship at Freescale Semiconductor. So far I spent 2 boring days staring at the computer and at least I get to enter the lab today.

The thing I hate about the inten is that I have to wake up way early just to catch the KTM which I have to stand the whole journey from 1 train to another. The worst is after work..Gosh its like I've just gone through war and back. (mode details next time)

Plus I don't even have the time to go online as all my energy has been drained out by fighting and winning the KTM war and the long 10 minutes walk from the front gate to the office plus another 10 minutes from KTM station to the front gate.

anyway I think that is all

will try to update soon..(if I can)

PS: my results are better than expected!

PSS: mechanics of solids result is not out yet (which might bring down my whole percentage and ruin my chances of ever doing MEng unless I DO NOT get less than 50%)

till next time
ciao~

2011-06-05T00:02:00.005+08:00

So basically exams are over and lets not think about how depressing it might be during results day.

and how did I spent my holidays?

summary of the whole week with a little picture here and there..

Sat 28th May (immediately after exam)

Our whole group went to Chilis and eat till we go broke..lolz..

our group picture at Chilis..

It was one of the funniest dinner I ever had..lol..laugh till my cheeks hurt talking crap and retarded stuff.

How could we not take a group picture in front of LV??
Luckily all the shops were close..if not its kinda embarrassing taking doing that when there are lots of people around..

Mon 30th May

Went to KLCC..nothing much to say just shopping around..

Tues 31st May

At home rotting..

Wed 1st June

Shopping at mid valley

Thur 2nd June

Also at mid valley

Fri 3rd June

Went to Pavilion with my friend who just came back from Canada. Watch X-men First class. It was awesome!!

and he bought me a winter olympic's mascot..Its so cute!!

MukMuk is its name..

and not to forget the maple syrup..

didn't know it was made from a MAPLE TREE SAP!!

anyway that's all for now..will update soon
ciaoz~

2011-06-03T23:35:00.000+08:00

was going to blog but to tired to do so

look forward to a new post tomorrow!!

since exams are OVER!!!

2011-05-24T17:43:00.001+08:00

Sigh..I'm a goner..

How to finish 3 20 credit subject in 6 days?

So far haven even finish 1 also..and its all so damn tough..

Why want to torture us like that?

Get It Right

2011-05-05T23:32:00.001+08:00

What have I done
Wish I could run
Away from this ship going under
Just trying to help
Hurt everyone else
Now I feel the weight of the world
Is on my shoulders

What can you do
When your good isn't good enough
And all that you touch tumbles down
Cause my best intentions
Keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take
Oh how many times will it take
For me to get it right
To get it right

Can I start again
With my faith shaken
Cause I can't go back and undo this
I just have to stay and face my mistakes
But if I get stronger and wiser
I'll get through this
What can you do
When your good isn't good enough
And all that you touch tumbles down

Cause my best intentions
Keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take
Oh how many times will it take
For me to get it right

So I throw up my fist
Throw a punch in the air and
Accept the truth that sometimes life isn't fair
Yeah I'll send out a wish
Yeah I'll send up a prayer
And finally someone will see
How much I care

What can you do
When your good isn't good enough
And all that you touch tumbles down
Oh my best intentions
Keep making a mess of things
Just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take
Oh, how many times will it take
To get it right, to get it right

I just LOVE this song..
Kinda like explain how I feel right now~

2011-05-05T23:26:00.002+08:00

How would normal people usually feel when exams are coming in like a few days time?

1. Panic
2. Quickly rush through their notes
3. Burning the midnight oil
4. Probably sleep for like 4-5 hours max
5. Stop all facebooking and msn-ing activity
6. Feeling like its the end of the world

so why am I so relax?
Is there something wrong with me?

I-A-M-S-O-D-E-A-D!!

:(

2011-05-01T18:06:00.002+08:00

안녕하세요!

난 정말 죽겠!!

어떻게 태도가 이런 종류의 과거 시험이 될까요?

안녕!

I'm just...

2011-04-16T00:02:00.002+08:00

I'm just...

due to some freaking crazy MATLAB COURSEWORK!!!

2011-04-02T01:29:00.002+08:00

Just like 2 weeks ago, my friends asked me why I do not have a boyfriend?..I was like lol-ed..how the heck am I suppose to answer that, I mean its like I myself can't really come up with a decent reason so I just smile and said..don't have lor..

But all that got me thinking..Its been so long already and I still well..you can say practically give up hope in this relationship thingy..I mean it's no rush or anything and I'm not that desperate to get one right now..It just that this got me thinking about the real reason why..

It could be due to my past failed relationships that always ended up with the guy going for another girl that I lost all hope into getting one that don't suddenly run off with another girl and leave you in the dark about it, with you acting like a fool not knowing what is happening.

It's really funny how a small thing like this can affect me until now..Its a long time ago thing but I still cannot get over it..It's kinda pathetic

anyway..forget about all that..I'm gonna state my ideal guy right now..just for fun~ XD

My ideal guy...

1. Cute and handsome at the same time.

2. Has a really cute smile and somewhat refreshing as when I look at him, I would smile too

3. A person who can make his own decisions

4. Loyal

5. Has a character like Hwang Tae Kyung in You're Beautiful..(stubborn and demanding)

6. Can play a music instrument

etc..

suddenly can't think of anything now..so thats all for now

till later ciaoz~

Breather

2011-03-27T15:51:00.004+08:00

Results and discussion:

Experiment 1

lab report + k-pop = a terrible combination

This explains that typing while figuring out what to put in your discussion while listening to k-pop is a terrible combination as words like 'Say Huh, Insomiaa~ aAa~, Love ya Love ya Love ya, Sorry sorry sorry sorry~, etc. can affect what you put in to your discussion.

Experiment 2

lab report + facebooking + tweeting = disaster

This is due to the fact that we will be complaining about it all day long on either facebokk or twitter while neglecting to complete the given report. It is terribly contagious, therefore it is advised to prevent from repeating this combination.

Conclusion:

In conclusion, the above experiments proved that these combinations are best left aside until you are sure that you can overcome it or else it will affect your assignments and reports. It is highly advisable to not even start any of the above combination thinking that you will pull through. It is a HUGE mistake.

See what mechanical engineering is doing to me? XD

signing off~

Minibites by Esther: Christmas Giveaway!

2011-01-10T17:52:00.004+08:00

(picture from minibites)

Getting exited just by reading the title?

yup Minibites (click on the link for more info) are giving away Christmas gifts!..

all you need to do is:

1. Tell them what's on your Christmas wish list this year! (Please limit to 3 items)

2. Pick one of the above prizes you would like to win.

3. Follow their blog (box located at the bottom of the page) (+ 1 entry)

4. Increase your chances of winning by blogging about this giveaway! (+ 1 entry)

simple right?

so what are you people waiting for? click on the link and get started!!

oh yea.. the prizes are really cute!!

Hair Cut

2010-12-17T03:23:00.003+08:00

Just had my hair chopped few days ago..due to just telling the hair stylist that I want it trim without stating the borderline, my hair looks like a rat tail now when I tie it up..

even my dog's tail is thicker than my hair..

well..excuse his position..thats the only picture I can come up with for now..so lets just focus on the tail~

well at least my hair is not as thick as before..but not that easy to manage due to the deformed natural curls..

anyway time to hit the Zs'
ciao~

2010-12-16T02:10:00.002+08:00

Exam are coming in a months time and here i am being lazy and stuff..sometimes i just never learn..always taking out my notes and minutes later, i'm either playing with game on my hp or watching anime on my ipod..or ended up with my head on a pillow..

really after all that, it is still not enough to teach you a lesson?

wake up..how are you going to do your intern at exon when you can't get good results later?

urgh..gotta study tomorrow and its final..have to lock my hp away or else i'll be tempted to play again..

ciaoz~

Dates..

2010-12-10T02:48:00.002+08:00

Haven't been updating for quite some time..well since all my coursework are done..I felt the sudden urge to just blog about something..might be pure nonsense..but my fingers are just dying to type down something here..

I'm sure everyone do daydream..be it their future, doing things with the guy you like, how your ideal other half should be and etc..

well, I had a sudden vision of how, to me a perfect date should be..and feel like just blogging down..(well this perfect thing is totally my preference..so if you don't like it or feel that it's lame or anything else can just stop reading it and move on..)

I always imagine like it'll be around winter, when it is cold and it'll best be during christmas (my favourite time).. where we'll be going to the amusement park (sounds childish right?), arguing over which ride to go on first..with all the christmas deco glittering in the sky..

and he'll be some guy who has never been to an amusement park before, looking around with exitement thinking which ride he should go to next..we'll be walking hand in hand down the road in coldness (the perfect setting for christmas), enjoying the warmth from his hand against mine..glancing at all the cute expressions he made..

when night falls, with all the lights lighted up, our last ride would obviously be on the feris wheel..where would confess our love and share a kiss across the night sky at the highest point..

lol..that is really a typical teenage dream..posting it for fun..feeling rather bored now

well just look at the time..gotta sleep
ciao~

-Mellisa- 3:05 AM 10.12.2010

Fragile Heart~

2010-11-10T14:14:00.002+08:00

Why are hearts so fragile?..and once you are succumbed to heartbreak..it takes a really long time to heal even if you have erase the very existence of that person out from your mind long time ago..your heart still remember..

It is so irritating..I hate how you have planted me in this situation..

at times like this..(when I've a serious dateline to meet for my dynamics)..I'm ranting over here..

sometimes I just never learn...

Kuroshitsuji

2010-10-22T17:50:00.005+08:00

Ever since I started watching Kuroshisuji (Black Butler)..I've going crazy over it especially Ciel Phantomhive..(yeah..he's a small kid..)..I don't mind Sebastian though..but Ciel just excites me..

I know I'm crazy!!..(gotta release all those stress you know..)

My FireFox theme..notice the boy at the corner?..Ciel Phantomhive..

My wallpaper..Sebastian and Ciel..

actually i got a few more wallpapers which interchange thanks to the new windows 7 that enables that function..

I just can't get enough of them..thinking of trying to find the hand phone strap for my phone..lol..

time to continue my lab report..was just taking a breather..

ciao~

ps: whats with blogger and their small size pictures anyway?..looks blur when I stretch it bigger..

Photoshop

2010-10-18T10:27:00.002+08:00

yes..as the title spells it all..

I SERIOUSLY NEED TO LEARN HOW TO USE IT!!

wanted to do so since high school but never take the initiative to install the program in my comp..

desperate in wanting to do some editing..

plus, I think I have to make plans in getting a DSLR or maybe a better camera..

XOXO~

Roy's b'day party post has yet to come next~

CS Fair 2010

2010-10-16T14:55:00.006+08:00

Notts had their CS Fair on the 12th and 13th Oct. I never thought of joining any clubs or society as I have to travel from home and therefore, it is inconvenient for me to stay very late..

and guess what?

I ended up JOINING the KOREAN society!!

well..I do have slight intention on joining but only did so when Andrew joined..(cuz I told the guy that I would only join if Andrew joins)

According to him, the benefits of joining are:

1. Discounts when they're having Korean food fair
2. Free Korean classes
3. Korean movie night
4. etc..(couldn't remember most of it..)

so anyway I love all things Korean..(dunno why the sudden liking after going there and back)

What do like about it?

The HOT guys..(kyaa~mostly actors..probably should start watching pretty boys and girls in animax..)

The food

The friendly people~ (the ones that I met during my tour..)

and finally..the place itself!!

signing off~
up next..Roy's b'day party~

The Other Side of Down

2010-10-15T18:29:00.002+08:00

That lil Archie's new album, just released last week..

Being a crazy Archie fan but stingy in spending money on his new album..I downloaded it of the net..

AND I FELL IN LOVE WITH THE SONG RIGHT AWAY..

especially Falling Stars..the song is stuck in my head right now..

up next~ cs fair..(probably..dunno when the post will arrive..)

2010-10-01T16:50:00.003+08:00

Was gonna upload the Wang Lee Hom event pics and ended up didn't due to the slow progress in uploading the photos..(could either be blogger or my connection's fault)

was really obsessed with watching Mulan and Mulan 2 this week..dunno why but I just suddenly feel like watching it again (although it will be my first time watching Mulan 2)..

after the long 4 months holiday, uni finally started on monday..the timetable so far is way better than 1st year's timetable..but my brain seems to be rotting away due to the decreasing usage during the summer..gotta brush up in my studies again next week!!

as to what happened during my 24 days of working for bates..its a disaster..i was so glad that it was finally over..too many conflict between over employer and my some of my working colleagues..

urgh..i was really in the state of blowing the whole event company down..

and it turns out that, glamourous event management does not have an office!!..one of my colleague went to the trouble of buying the company's profile..(due to reasons that i will not disclose here as you'll never know who might be reading)..and well..there are quite a number of surprise regarding that company..

well one thing for sure that i don't mind mentioning, their way of managing the employees totally sucks!!..everything is practically upside down..god knows why they want to set up their own company at such young age (barely older than me by a few years) when they couldn't manage it probably..especially with the laws from the labour department ( i won't go further than that as well..)

now i'm kinda worried whether i'll be getting my pay on time..

we shall see when the time comes..
signing off~

2010-08-21T21:20:00.002+08:00

Miracles do happen..as i was ranting at my previous post, i got a surprise yesterday..somehow we manage to get 4 tickets in total for the event Watch Love in Disguise with Wang Lee Hom..

weird huh?

so there i am tagging along too..and i was seated like a row in front of him (which was separated by a big walkway space)..anyway it was really close that my sis was able to snap a few shots of him eating popcorn..lol..

photos will be posted and details will be given after i've finish with my job..which is around 13 sept or later..

ciao~

2010-08-18T16:07:00.002+08:00

I'm really really tired..

I GIVE UP!! sigh..

she has been giving me problems ever since her hols started..I'm really tired of trying to keep quite all the time already..

first, she say she want to work..but didn't even take the initiative to apply for anything..so far all those offers that she got are all applied by me..

second, got a job already, so many things come in..her obsession with wang lee hom that is giving me troubles..suppose to work from this friday till next month and ended up having to take off 2 days just cause of the autography session and the watching the movie with him..

on the surface..all this shouldn't have any problems with me..but the thing is that she have to WORK and this give me the trouble having to cover up for her..what if anything happens?..i'll be blame for it..

might as well don't work..if so many things like this comes in..really don't work..i'm tired of all the troubles she bring me..

i really give up..

this will be the last time i'll help..i don't want to do it anymore

why don't she just leave me alone..i sacrifice many times already..i'm really so tired of this..

I don't want to apply anything for her anymore..I'm not even going to help during work..

I really hate this so much..Its draining out my energy..

2010-08-09T15:39:00.002+08:00

I finally realise something these few days..there are so many type if people in this world and the ones I usually meet don't sum up these type off people at all..

it all started with that stupid panasonic brand ambassador job..

I applied and received an email later asking me to go for an interview..before that, the guy named Sam asked me to state which location that I prefer to work at, so putting midvalley as my 1st choice, I also told him that my sis is applying and I told him that it is better to put us at the same location. He told me not to worry as midvalley has at least 4 booths.

A few days later I attended the interview in midvalley's starbucks at 2pm as stated in the sms. Then not knowing who he is, is called but to no avil. He then later sms me stating that they will be late as it is jam. No able to do anything about it, I just sit there with my sis waiting.

While waiting, I observed the place around me, looking at other people from other company also conducting their interview at the same place. Then I notice these 2 guys, one in white and the other in black, conducting their interview.

30 minutes later, Sam sms me stating whether the interview can be conducted at 3pm as they were still stuck in the jam. I agreed and went to mph to browse through some magazines.

At 3pm, I was waiting at starbucks again. Sam sms me a few minutes later saying that they have arrived. I told him that I'm already at starbucks and he called telling me he's inside. Looking around, I then saw the guy clad in black whom I saw earlier looking around with his phone at his ear.

Instantly I realise that HE IS SAM AND THAT HE WAS THERE SINCE 2PM AND I WAS WAITING LIKE A FOOL ALL ALONG.

Just imagine the shock I went though and the anger slowly rising withing me..but I stopped myself from confronting him..I just went on with the interview with a really dissatisfied look on my face.

Why did he have to lie and say that they were stuck in the jam when they were there on time conducting interviews on other people?..What is wrong with telling me that I have to wait for my turn and tell me to comeback later. I would understand that very well instead of lying to me and make me wait like a fool..

anyway putting that aside, the story continues..

A few days after that, I received an email stating that I've been hired and ask me to choose a suitable training session. While waiting for the day to arrive, my sis receive a call from Sam asking whether one of us can work in sogo and the other at klcc. She told him we can't as it is difficult for our parents to send us and she asked about midvalley..he told us that suddenly a few outlets drop out from this promotion and that there is only 1 booth left. He told us that he'll try so look for a place for us nearby.

A day before the training, my sis called him again to ask..then he suddenly say he'll have to wait for the reply of the people assigned in midvalley to switch with us..

so, which is which?

from his words there is a very high possibility that none of the participating outlets dropped out but he did not want to give us midvalley as there might be nobody who want to work at the other outlets like cheras outlet..

This actually shows that this kind of people cannnot be trusted..all his reasons did not connect with each other..he thinks that just because we are young, he can tricked us like that..in the end we did not work for him also..

Anyway this is my warning for you people out there who read my blog, if you want to know the company's name..I'll gladly state it here..Its EVENTANTS and the guy's name is SAM..

ciao then~

2010-08-06T02:56:00.002+08:00

argh..its really taking forever just to put a few words down in my blog..it seems dead again..just don't really bother to update on anything..too engrossed into downloading personal taste..

you know what i love best about that show?..the main guy lead is so my ideal type of guy..lol..lelaki macam ni sudah pupus lama dah..

finally after so long manage to land a job..but there seems to be a problem in things..due to me and my sis have to be together in a same place so that it is easier for my parents to send..i might not be able to accept it after all..unless they find a solution to the problem..

sigh..i don't blame my parents for thinking this way..but still to tell you the truth..it is really not easy to find a job that is willing to compromise so much..god knows how many offer that i have to reject due to this..if not, i'll probably be working now for levi's will RM 120 a day in my pocket..as to why i didn't get that job?..cause they only require one extra person..and my dad says: if its only one that i'm not sending..you and your sis have to go together!..

really..what kind of thing is that?..she don't even wanna lift a finger to look for jobs in the beginning till i have to nag so many times..i have to look for her also..than tell her to ask her friend for the pc fair job..don't want..last minute only want to ask..than tell me no vacancy already..

I REALLY FEEL LIKE SCREAMING AT HER!!!!!

its really not fair..why the hell do i have to get tied down by this?..i just feel like screaming out what i wanted for so long..but i didn't..i kept it inside me for a long time already..

that it..i'm not gonna bother about her next year..after all i'll be busy doing my intern and she have to settle things herself..

she's like a big baby..i practically have to do everything for her..go interview also make so much noise..why don't you try being in my shoes for once!! having to compromise so many times already till i feel like i'm at my limit..

arr..feel so much better after complaining here..

ciao~

2010-06-13T16:57:00.003+08:00

Finally I got a chance to blog..dunno why blogger take so damn long to load..I'm growing old by just waiting..

Gonna start working next wednesday for 5 days first..this time my aim is to get a new touch screen phone..aming at the htc smart since is cheap compared to sony ericsson's xperia x10..or maybe the LG lollipop..its cute..

can't blog much now..was suppose to put up some pictures but due to the long wait..my experience at Tao have to put on hold..

till then
ciao~

ps: there's 60% at United Colours Of Benetton in Parkson 1 Utama..been aiming at this mini skirt..can't wait..lol..

2010-06-05T02:23:00.002+08:00

Is there a time when you wonder..when you think back on all the past decisions that you had made whether it is out of free will or forced to?

well..I have..recently even more in fact..now that I'm on holiday.

I always think back like what if I've never make this choice?..would I be meeting different people? enjoying my life even more? or become even better than the me right now?

well..I know..does it actually make any difference thinking all that when it is in the past and you can't turn back time..

god..must have watch to many emo dramas..I also become emo already..lol..

hmn.. I knew I read it some where about what memories are..but I forgotten about it already..gotta go look for it again and post it here..cuz I felt that it is kinda true..

Oh ya..I just replied that guy's message on facebook..the one that I post earlier..since I can't think of anything else at the moment I just got with..

Hi, nice to meet you too..

anyway got nothing else right now..will hear from me soon
ciao~

2010-06-02T15:41:00.001+08:00

not much to update..just lazying around the house watching movies..will probably plan something to blog soon..

till then..

was checking my facebook messages and guess what I found..

Alex Brendeon 02 June at 00:40 Report

i saw you beautiful picture on face book and i am very much interested in meeting you, now that i am relocating to your country Malaysia for business

like who would be that stupid..I don't even know that person..

2010-05-27T22:48:00.001+08:00

finally!!..exams are over!!!

so so excited..am already crazy downloading movies and dramas..

will be hearing from me from now on..i'll be updating my blog a lot now..

can't be keeping it dead forever

finally wishing everyone from UNMC

HAPPY HOLIDAYS!

ciao~

2010-05-23T16:38:00.007+08:00

taking a short break from EMS..been doing that ofter..either playing solitaire or sleeping when i should have been studying..later before test gurantee to panic kau kau..

2 more papers and i'm done..another week to go..can't wait..all this pent up feeling of exciment in me is gonna burst out any moment..

i'm so gonna watch lots of dramas and anime..

already laying out my programes when the exam's are not even over..sigh..

don't you feel fustrated when you go to a website an type in your user and password and get the reply..

YOUR PASSWORD IS INCORRECT..

when you are damn sure that it is correct..

so you went through your mails and checked the password..it is indeed correct!
then why the hell did that site says its wrong?
just because i haven't been going there for months..

saw the photos for the world date with kim bum programme..

I'M SO JEALOUS

HE IS SOOO CUTE AND THE 5 GIRLS ARE DAMN LUCKY..

so not fair..if they were to held this programme next year..i'll be able to go..

why does it have to be above 20?...

if I were there..I'll be able:

- to hug him tight while taking a picture
- taste his cooking
- get in a pajamas party with him
- fly kite with him
- eat ice-cream everyday with him
- receive gifts that he gave to the girls
- take even more pictures with him and of him
- stare into his mesmerising eyes every day while i'm there

and the list goes on..

basicaly that what they did during the world date..i read it of from the interview with one of the contest winner..she is so so lucky..i wish i was at her place..

seriously..with a cute guy like this..who needs anyone else?..just joking

my latest celebrity crush..why are most korean celab guys so cute?

i want a korean bf already..lol..

2010-05-04T16:48:00.001+08:00

i won't be able to update much this month..

gotta study real hard for exams cannot play already..

ciao~

2010-05-03T17:56:00.004+08:00

do karma really happen? or is it a mere coincidence?

just read for yourself..

A girl named C met a guy named B. At first, B was interested in C and tried to court her. After many tries, he succeeded and thus, the journey of C and B begins.

C was a careful but naive little girl. Due to her unsuccessful past relationships, she became more caution towards B. However, her liking to him practically blinded her. At first, B was a really caring guy. He tried all ways to get C to forget about her past. Whenever C is unhappy, B was always there for her.He came up with all kinds of encouraging words to keep C going.

A few months later, B started to ignore C. He suddenly became cold towards her without any valid reason. After several atempts from C to try and talk to him, their relationship were just like the old times but B started to treat C badly. Eventhough C's friends advised her to not go with B, C did not listen. Although there were more or less similiar to a couple, C and B's relationship wasn't an official one.

Months after that, C's mom found out about them. Her mom tried to break them off by keeping C from contacting B. However, C remain strong and still continue her ties with B.

C did not contact B for a month and little did she know, B has been meeting another girl named A. They have been in a relationship for a month without C's knowledge. Futhermore, B did not let C know any of this and just like before, ignored her totally.

In the end, C found out about their relationship and was really depressed. She confronted B, but to no avail. B even put the blame on C. She manage to recover with help from all her good friends and moved on.

A year later after that incident, C decided to look at B and A's blog to just to snoop around. She found out that after A went overseas to study, they had a really bad argument. It seems that A cheated on B from B's side of the story. As C did not know about A's side of the story, she dare not make any assumptions. They broke off just like that.

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Well..for those who read this post, care to give a comment? whether it is karma or not?..if possible

just let me know what you guys think!!

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went to esprit with mom earlier and there was this lady working there who knew my mom. they chat for a while and she was giving me this piece of advise.

Her:
Study hard first and don't think of having a boyfriend. Don't even get married so early..it will be boring. At least build up your career first before you think of marriage, so that you'll have money and career just in case if your husband find another.

Me:
just smile at her..while thinking..lol..like that also can..

well..signing off~

Since You're a Man - Gummy

2010-05-03T01:59:00.005+08:00

haven't been sleeping early this past few days. was trying to finish up E.U. so that I can concentrate in my studies but another thing now started to distract me, winter sonata (the anime version). I've never watch this show before only remember that it used to be very famous.

after the 1st episode, I found that I actually do not understand what is happening in that story. maybe cuz i'm just at the 1st episode and have to wait longer to finally get hold of the story.

found this mv while my sis was looking at the asian news

and the best part is..KIM HYUNG JUNG is in the mv!!

although in my opinion compared to my kim bum, he's not that good looking...but he has a smile that makes you wanna look at him even longer..it's like you could hardly take your eyes away from him..

the mv is kinda cute..

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i do think a lot these days..i always wonder why did i stop trying to make a move on him..

just the other day.. i decided to helped him with his club stuff and when i get to actually see so many facial expressions and finding out things that i never knew before, at that time..1 thing actually cross my mind. as long as i can be close to him this way, not caring whether we are friends or couples in the future, i'm happy enough. just to see and hear so many things about him that is new to me is good enough..till i find someone else that divert my attention away from him..

looking fustrated while fumbling with the zip..

Exams exams..

2010-05-02T15:38:00.002+08:00

studying like mad right now..but still blogging..lol..

i'm suppose to study but already thought of what to do with my blog..

during the hols, i'm planning to revive it and do something different..

apart from that gonna make a few changes with the layout..to a better and maybe nicer one..

finally revived my twitter..

signing off then~

2010-03-17T21:44:00.002+08:00

Back again after 4 months from my last post. Just for a short update which is basically nothing much.

In sem 2 right now, damn difficult with lots of assignments coming right up. Plus my previous result wasn't something i can boast or be proud off. sigh...Gotta study damn hard from now on..

As usual there's nothing special happening to me right now..Just the usual stuff..so people who are reading this, which i doubt many do after the long absent..There is nothing going on between me and him* (for those who know who)

can u imagine that i also haven't update my twitter for a very long time that i couldn't even log in now..something bout having the wrong username of password..wth..

anyway gtg ciao~

New Moon Release Party Part 1!

2009-11-27T02:45:00.004+08:00

warning..may contain spoilers (for those who haven't watch the movie)

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Edward: Marry me, Bella?
Bella: Huh? (* in shock)

Me: Without a doubt..I WILL (for Edward in the book)

Me: I wan JACOB!! (for the movie)

lol..ok its really stupid..still not out from the craze yet...but thats what the ending was like (I warn you people..it contains spoliers..)

as u can see my reply to that statement above is kinda confusing..i like Edward in the book..as he's so damn dreamy but i prefer Jacob in the movie cuz he's hwat!!..

went and watch the movie last wed..it was a blast!!..

but for now it is just a short update..will do part 2 tomorrow..haven't uploaded the pictures..by then i'll describe the event and the movie in detail..

till then..ciao~

2009-11-07T03:05:00.002+08:00

woops!..haven't been updating..just a quick update before i sleep..

have lots of assignments this week..will start tomorrow and hopefully can finish on time. running a flu right now..just cuz i was walking at pasar malam yesterday and it suddenly drizzle!..i mean DRIZZLE!..how did i get sick with just a few drops on my head..ok maybe not that little..

thermo test turn out alright..almost screw it and practically write down the last question's solution when the lecturer say's that its time..lol..its crappy anyway..but should be more thn 15 marks..i hope..

god knows why dr. lim wanna rush to finish up his lecture for this sem and continue with next sem's lecture..i mean..we have plenty of time bout another 6 more weeks and he's at the final two chapters. don't even understand his lecture today..he's just going too fast like catching the last train to china..lol..

and as usual solid mech class was no different either..but this is worst..since the 1st day of that class, i can't understand a single thing till now..go or don't go makes no difference.

glad that dr. woo won't be teaching us anymore..lol..but dr fawas is so DAMN LONG WINDED..kept repeating the same thing over and over again and can lecture for bout 2 hours straight without a break..even we can't fit anymore info in our brains..

celebrated jer sern's birthday at pizza hut today..just imagine 5 people..(1 girl and 4 guys) ordered a set for 6 people plus another large pizza..gosh..i was in shock..the max that i can take is only bout 3 slices..just imagine the look on the waiter's face when we ordered..

looks like things are getting better between us..just like the old times..well, i'm happy enough with that for now..better not push my luck so far..scared it might destroy our friendship..(okla..maybe not that serious..)

gotta sleep..lots of stuff to do tomorrow..

ciao~

2009-10-26T10:11:00.002+08:00

Its really really been a long time. Even my friends tell me that my blog is dead..lol..Been really emo-ing this few days..sigh..again i know!..

anyway went and see Lee Min Ho yesterday..it was a total disappointment. Stupid Etude House. I practically got squash like a beetle and they don't let out side go up to get our posters signed. Telling us to wait and wait and what happens? He left after signing 30.. i mean 30 can u imagine that? First you tell us to wait for our turn and only let 30 people up the stage. When we make lots of noise he told us that Min Ho is not a robot. OMG! i mean is Lee Hom a robot? yet he signed thousands of albums.. always telling his fans that he will sign everybody's album..get a life man..that stupid fat guy that looks like Ah Long..see whether i file a complaint to Etude House Korea..mark my word..i'll really do that..

even getting the poster is a hassle..gotta make lots of noise only they give us..Bloody people..

well looking at the bright side..HE'S SO DAMN CUTE WHEN HE SMILES..got a video of him coming out to backstage..hehe..drools*..might post that when i have the time..

gotta really rush in my lab report..don't know what to do..sigh..work load is getting higher..

i think i'm gonna emo for another who knows 100 days?..lol..

why do i have the liking to get myself in difficult situation every time?..sigh..

2009-10-10T03:55:00.002+08:00

better update my blog or somebody will bug me non-stop about it..lol..

after my 19th birthday (oct 3rd) i feel like i'm older, even my mind seems to think differently. got lots of decisions to make these 2 weeks. didn't really like mechanical that much after all, so i decided to change to electronic and communication engineering. although mechanical got more job prospect but i don't want to regret the 2nd time. 1st for not taking A levels or SAM and proceed to medicine but i put that far behind me now concentrate in what i'm currently doing.

sometimes i wonder, life is really damn complicating. we have to make so many decisions whether its studies, love, career, etc. looking at my dog sometimes make me wish to be like him. eat, sleep and play, living a boring lifestyle but have nothing to think about. no worries and regrets, just doing the same thing everyday.

well just look at the time! gotta go or i'll have panda eyes like Dr Woo..lol..(inside joke in class)..

before i sign off..

Taylor Lautner is so damn hot in Rolling Stone!!!..

haha..ciao~

2009-10-01T19:20:00.002+08:00

sigh..don't know what up with me earlier..I just can't bring myself to face him properly..Even the way he is around me is totally different from usual..Is it because of that weird messages that he thought I sent but actually it was someone else although we clarifed things..but he still have his doubts..

or maybe its because..but it couldn't be that..it was so normal at that time..now i'm starting to have doubts bout it...

2009-10-01T19:16:00.002+08:00

Guess what?

I'm on twitter right now..lol..just got nothing to do and decided to try it out..

just click here to have a look at it!!

Hohoho!!

2009-09-28T09:23:00.003+08:00

1st lesson of the sem..hahaha..so not funny!!

anyway a VERY GOOD news!1

Lin Chong got BANNED for posting so much in Sohlan's c box..haha..

ok that's not really the news..

checked my mail yesterday..and guess what i got?

Hi Mellisa,

CONGRATULATIONS!

We are please to inform you that you have won Week 3's Surprise Gift Giveaway organized by Twilight Singapore!

You have won 1 Datemakwe Oversized New Moon Calendar and 1 Japanese Chiraishi!

Do respond to us by emailing us your mailing address to allow us to deliver your prize.

Thank you for participating in our Surprise Gift Giveaway Contest.

Once again, we'd like to say, CONGRATULATIONS!

Best Regards,

Aishah

I'm so damn lucky..lol..
Gotta concentrate in class..get lecture from parents this morning..ciao~

2009-09-08T21:47:00.008+08:00

In another 3 more days marks the start of my degree course. 4 months pass by in a matter of minutes or maybe days..lol..

Just have a look at my time table..gosh it is really pack..gotta put up with it for a semester. For now, I'm just happy to meet my friends again..Its been a really long time since i last saw them..Got to catch up on juicy gossips..lol..I am a busybody girl..

meet up with the girls last week..catching up, watching movie..Gamer..its not a bad movie..kinda interesting with lots of action..

before that, been working for 2 months at mid valley

This is what the counter looks like

Now i', just waiting for the new moon release party to kick off..its gonna be so cool!!..can't wait!!!
anyway time to sign off..till then..ciao~

Alfred!

2009-08-26T23:03:00.007+08:00

Here it is..after god knows how long only i have time to post my dog's pictures..lol..will be doing it in order..since he grows a lot now..

when i first got him..

his favourite sleeping spot..

looks like his smiling right?

now he looks like this..since i kinda like this picture i decided to play with it a bit to make it look like this:

lol..

it is still his favourite spot to rest although he never sleep outside of his cage now..

well..thats about all..will do some other updates later..

ciao~

2009-08-20T03:09:00.002+08:00

woops!!...haven't been updating..hmn..about 3 months plus already..

what have this lazy girl been doing? lol..

WORKING!!..

yes i got myself a job..and this is the 2nd and last month of working..working in gardens as mastercard redemption..the place is really dull..like an abandon town sometimes..not many people shop there..redemption also kinda dead on weekdays..

and i ended up watching G.I. Joe last monday..while working..hehe..i know..how naughty of me to do that.. :)

got my pup..and he all grown up now..did say i want to post up his pictures..but there no time..i might to it later in the day..a really naughty rascal..like to bite so much..my hands and legs full of his bite marks..

well i thought something good finally happened last month..but to my dismay, it ended up in disappointment..but anyway..i will keep trying till i reach my goal..lol...

neway later than..ciao~

2009-05-23T09:47:00.002+08:00

it has been ages since i blog..busy with finals and stuffs..but anyway its all over!!..lol..although i'm kinda worried what the results will turn out like..

anyway..got lots of plans for the holidays..planning to work..but gotta find a job..been lazying around these few days sleeping late and waking up late lol...enjoying life it seems..

might get a puppy today to tomorrow..but not sure whether we'll keep it..after all..my mum don;t really approve of it unless it is cute..its a terrier mix with pariah..so i'm kinda wondering how it turn out to be..well but if i get it than i'll post a picture up here..

till then..ciao..:)

2009-04-05T18:25:00.002+08:00

after so long..i'm finally gonna start blogging..but only this time as finals are coming..and i haven't really hit the books yet..sigh..busy with assignments..gotta complete it all by this week..

time flies really really fast..in just a blink of an eye..it is almost the end of foundation..its also the time to make my decision..i finally decided to take mechanical engineering. I still need to confirm it by monday by asking one of the lecturers.

it feels kinda sad that all of us will be in separate ways going to different courses in degree..i'm so gonna miss you guys..

it is really fun spending time with you people for about a year, some are really good work partners, lab partners, friends and companions. Some of you are like family to me..lol..i got myself a little brother and a great grandpa (don't ask me how or why)..although some of you really do annoy me most of the time..but anyway i'll just brush it off for a while...lol..

just another month..

the whole foundation year was full of ups and downs..in a year's time, so many things can happened..who would have thought that we weren't meant to be after all..but lets not take the sad memories out now..

i have made lots of new friends who were, to my amazed are really really good people..thanks to those who had look after me throughout the whole year..i really appreciate it..

after all thats happened in the past year, i finally realised that no matter what happens, all my friends are irreplacable..relationships come and go; however, friendship remains...

well..gotta go and continue my assignment..got a presentation tomorrow..wishing myself all the luck..

till then..ciao~

100th post..

2009-03-07T14:21:00.009+08:00

my 1ooth post for this blog..i know..kinda lame huh?..after so long..

my dear..you're the only one for me..i'll never let you go..EVER..XD!

i prefer you so much better than any other..

your dazzling smile, beautiful eyes and the most important part of all..sharp nose..squeals*

i hold your heart in my hands

you were mine from the very begining..XD!!

imagine the both of us watching the sunset together..

lol.. :P

Teardrops on my guitar

2009-03-06T15:38:00.001+08:00

Drew looks at me
I fake a smile so he won't see
What I want and I need
And everything that we should be

I'll bet she's beautiful
T hat girl he talks about
And she's got everything
That I have to live without

Drew talks to me
I laugh 'cause it's just so funny
I can't even see
Anyone when he's with me

He says he's so in love
He's finally got it right
I wonder if he knows
He's all I think about at night

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

Drew walks by me
Can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly
The kind of flawless I wish I could be

She better hold him tight
Give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes
And know she's lucky 'cause

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

So I drive home alone
As I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down
And maybe get some sleep tonight

'Cuz he's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

He's the time taken up but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into
Drew looks at me
I fake a smile so he won't see

3D snowman...

2009-03-05T19:57:00.009+08:00

was playing around with Blender 3D yesterday..due to digital media work..

well..i was suppose to finish the exercise but ended up i follow the tutorial to do a simple winter scene..but..hey..i can pass it up to the lecturer..lol..

ok cut all the crap..let me just put the result of my work here..

this is what is shown on the tutorial..

this is my work..

ok i know the head is kinda huge compare to the tutorial 1..i'm not sure how did it end this way..and um..i think my trees are too small and the snowman seems bigger than the tree..

2009-03-01T00:50:00.002+08:00

gosh..am really damn tired right now..

1) all the assignments that seems to be adding up..

2) i almost used up whatever i've got 'to try and make my plan worked..gosh..its so difficult..i pick a difficult subject for a beginner like me..

3) lack of sleep..needed a really long one right now..

ciao~

Feb 27 2009

2009-02-28T00:05:00.005+08:00

what is wrong with me?

i seem to have mixed feelings for 2 different people..

1) i'm not sure whether it faded..but my heart raced on whenever i see him..

2) i think it might be infatuation..

god..i can't fall for anyone..not now..not when my feelings for another isn't over..and not when i'm still going on with my plans..

what the hell?

Feb 25 2009

2009-02-28T00:05:00.004+08:00

well..so far everything is settled..and i'm alright..no more crying, no more thinking about what to do..

in conclusion?..you could say i'm free as a bird again..lol..

i can't believe myself when i 1st heard about the news..i was practicaly laughing..and when i was home, i was like feeling really great as if i have tought of our things as a burden..and that burden has finally been release..this has been going on for 2 days..

but the 3rd day..it is as though as reality strikes..i finally realise that you were no longer there like you used to..and tears followed by after that..weird i know..

after days of thinking..i finally decided to confront you..just as i suspected..the answer you gave me was exactly the answer that i dread..not only that..you even blame me for your faded feelings..like hello?..whats that gotta do with me?..at that time..i felt that i could just slap you..but i refrain as it is an open are..and many people are there..

i was really lucky to have so many friends who cared..that i don't want to think about this anymore..

you wanted to remain as friends i have no choice but to agree..yes even though u didn't cheat on me..but at least you should tell me what is happening earlier..i really felt like such a fool for only feeling this way about you..

you know what?..do you actually think that i am really really good to forgive you and remain as friends?..even if i do say i forgive you..but i don't think that way inside..like i've said..i'm not the type of person who let things go that easily..

from the very beginning, your feelings for me were just infatuation..i was a fool to fall for you deep..

i can't smile at you (even though i do that every time i see you) honestly and think that nothing ever happened..i don't even feel like saying hi or talking to you at all..your intentions were clear..u practicaly used me just to get notes or answer for classes that you've missed..i really hate you for it..and yet i still give you my notes..how stupid can i be?..

i tried to avoid seeing you and your gf..but everywhere i go..i seem to see the both of you almost everywhere..its so annoying..

sigh..i really don't know what to do anymore..

Feb 14 2009

2009-02-28T00:04:00.004+08:00

you know what?..i crap again..got into a crappy mood these few days..just not really in a good mood since the start if the sem..and my old habits came about again..

yes having trouble sleeping..sigh..can't i just fall asleep like any normal people?..maybe its cause i slept too much earlier..

gotta do that to avoid myself from thinking stupid stuff..

anyway HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!! my dear friends..

which reminds me that i haven't post the greeting on the other blog..oh well..will do that tomorrow..

i remember that although throughout my years with no memorable times during valentine as my relationships always start few months after valentine and end few months before valentine..but i do like the valentine's day 2 years ago when i was in form 5..

well..lets keep all the details out..that guy happened to keep appearing on msn aleart..

the fact is..i still miss my high school days..i really miss you guys there..

gosh grow up girl..you can't linger in a place for a long time..its time you move on..

Feb 13 2009

2009-02-28T00:04:00.003+08:00

had fortune cookies earlier..and guess what did i get?..btw..i ate 3..unsatisfied with the stupid fortune..

1. A sweet smile is your ability to make new friends

don't know whether i can agree on that a not..

2. A beautiful, smart and loving person will be coming into your life

oh..that's so nice..after saying that i've given up..apart from the beautiful..hopefully it will come true..lol..yea right..

3. Have a good meal and have a good day

wtf?

Feb 13 2009

2009-02-28T00:03:00.001+08:00

i got really fed up of things right now..so i decided to just give it up..
since i have now declared it..i don't think i will care if i offended anybody anymore..i really don't..

Every night you cry yourself to sleep
Thinking why does this happened to me?
Why does every moment have to be so hard?
Hard to believe it

Won't Go Home Without You
~Maroon 5~

i no longer would do this anymore..even now i have better control at my tears..well you can say that i've grown?..lol..maybe..anyway nobody would be worth even a single drop of my tears..

And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry, don't cry, don't cry

Big Girls Don't Cry
~Fergie~

yes by right it sould be this way..its better for everybody..

You change your mind
Like a girl changes clothes
Yeah, you PMS like a bitch I would know

And you always think
Always speak cryptically
I should know
That you're no good for me

We used to be just like twins, so in sync
The same energy now's a dead battery
Used to laugh 'bout nothing
Now you're plain boring I should know
That you're not gonna change

Hot N Cold
~Katy Perry~

don't say anything for that..i'm just not in a good mood right now..and its not your business to bother either..

Memories suppose to fade
What's wrong with my heart
Shake it off let it go
Didn't think it would be this hard
Should be strong, moving on
But I see you

Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside
And I turn around
You're with him now
I just can't figure it out

A Little Too Not Over You
~David Archuleta~

ok..just hope that it will end up being this way..

hmn..whats with me and song lyrics?..lol..dunnolar..just not in the right state of mind right now..

know what..this is actually the 1st time in my life that i smiled at you or practically anybody without showing any emotion..its like i just moved my mouth up into a smile without any sign of really wanting to smile at you..its just emotionless..i don't even know that i can do that..

usually i would show sign of happiness if i smile at someone..even if i really hate that person as if to hide my real thoughts from them..but today..that feeling just disappear..i can't believe it.. myself..

2009-02-28T00:02:00.001+08:00

ok screw you..i'm doing it now

so i hear by declare that i will no longer keep my private blog..

there..so i'm move some post over right now..lol..

2009-02-27T23:59:00.001+08:00

guess what?

i'm tired of actually keeping 2 blogs at the same time..as most of the time i would be only posting more on 1 blog and not sure what to post on the other..

since me and him are so over right now..due to a really very long story and several reasons..i might rethink combining both blogs..since í no longer afraid that my mum would read it..

if i were to combine it again, i might bring come post over from there..

we shall see..

Tagged again!!..

2009-02-25T15:46:00.002+08:00

1. The person who tagged you is...
Eric

2. Your relationship with him/her is...
high school friend

3. Your 5 impressions of him/her are...
um..nice, friendly, helpful, can be a bit annoying at times and understanding..

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you
err...couldn't remember

5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you
um..follow my advise and you'll be fine?..

6. If he/she become your lover you will
dunno..couldn't imagine that..

7. If he/she become your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be
err..maybe nothing?

8. If he/she become your enemy, you will
probably do some evil things..lol..

9. If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be
hmn..not sure..

10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is
to help in giving advise?..cuz he always help me in that..

11. Your overall impression of him/her is
geek!!

12. How you think people around you will feel about you?
uh..that i can be evil at times?..lol..

13. The characters you love of yourself are
being myself

14. On the contrary, the characters that you hate about yourself are
falling for that wrong ppl.

15. The most ideal person you want to be is
exactly like edward cullen!!

16. For people who care and love you, say something to them.
Thank you so much guys for everything..i do love you all!!..haha..

17. Pass this test to 10 persons who you wished to know how they feel about you.
1. wendy
2. sohlan
3. jer sern
4. navia
5. carmen
6. daniel
7. eric..lol..
8. andrea
9. samantha
10. zengie

btw..you ppl don't have to do anything..i just wanna complete this..

18. Who is no. 6 having relationship with?
no one..

19. Is no. 9 a male or female?
female

20.If no. 7 and no.10 together, is that a good thing?
nope..i think no 10 is taken..lol..

21. What is no. 2 studying about?
Engineering

22. When is the last time u had a chat with no. 3?
just yesterday..

23. What kind of music band does no. 8 like?
not sure..

24. Does no. 1 have any siblings?
yup..

25. Will you woo no. 3?
no way..he's like my 'grandson'..lol..

26. How about no. 7?
nope..he's my good friend..

27. Is no. 4 single?
yup..although she have somebody in mind..

28. What is the surname of no.5?
Yap

29. What is the hobby of no. 10?
dunno..

30. Does no. 5 and 9 get along well?
they don't even know each other..

31. Where is no. 2 studying at?
Nottingham

32. Talk something casually about no. 1
J**** and other stuffs

33. Have you tried developing feelings for no. 6?
no..he's my really good friend..

34. Where does no. 9 live at?
sungai long i think

35. What colour does not.4 like?
no idea...

36. Are no. 5 and 1 best friends?
yes..

37. Is no. 7 the sexiest person in the world?
err...something wrong somewhere..

38. What is no. 6 doing now?
in emb class..

Tagged..

2009-02-13T22:46:00.002+08:00

tagged by eric

The rules and regulations:
1. Each player of this game starts off with 15 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself.
2. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 15 weird things/habits/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly.
3. At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names.
4. No tags back!!

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1. i'm kinda sensitive and probably a little emotional..
2. i love reading manga..
3. i vow to devote myself to edward cullen~
4. i can be a devil at times..
5. i can even hate a person by their look..if they looked really annoying to me..
6. i'm really very blur..and it is getting worst
7. i've a phobia for people leaving me or not talking to me for no reason at all..
8. i sometimes prefer to be alone by myself..not mixing with anybody..
9. always wishing that i'll get thinner..
10. hates to lose to people who i classify as..not as good as me..
11. always having the urge to do more than people in assignments..
12. love cute stuffs..
13. wanted to be fairer
14. prefer medicine than engineering..
15. hate to do this kind of tag..

anybody who want to do this can just do it..lazy to provide names..

2009-02-09T16:40:00.002+08:00

curse me or anything..due to the fact that i've not been updating this blog..people keep telling me that my blog are kinda dead..lol..

well..nothing interesting to talk about these days and moreover i don't have the time to blog also..got lots of things to do and the maths problem sheet is just driving me crazy..sigh..

hmn..well..will find some stuff to post it up later..

tata~

2009-02-01T17:20:00.004+08:00

hiya..its been a long time..busy preparing for cny..but now i'll be busy again since 3rd sem is here!!!..lol..

anyway before that

HAPPY
CNY!!

well..sorry for the late greeting guys..

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i believe that there's no such things as fairytail endings..to me it is just a total crap..after all..what is there for me to believe in anymore..i give up all that many years ago..

looks like i'm gonna be right this time also..

2009-01-19T12:20:00.003+08:00

its been like god knows how many days since i post my last post here..well...i never keep track of my time..lol..

anyway..i finally got a new watch!!..lol..no more kids size adidas..kissing it goodbye now..

oh look at the time..better go pack something for lunch first..

away*

back*

here are the picture of my new watch..lazy to take a real picture of it..so i just search from the net..

searching*

got it..it's a casio sheen collection..an anolog-digital watch..

nice huh?..but its kinda expensive..bout RM 478..but i got it for Rm 272..heh..XD..

2009-01-17T00:03:00.000+08:00

grrr...blogspot is so annoying..giving me problems..

argh!!!...

2009-01-12T00:11:00.002+08:00

well..its been a long time since i updated something on this blog..well to you people out there..i now have another blog which is only invited to a few people who are close to me to read..its more about my private stuff that i'm gonna keep from some people from reading just in case they found my new link..which is not that difficult..lol..

so anyway i think i might not updated this blog a lot nowadays unless i find something that you can classify under general stuff..

just 1 more exam to go..and the 1 i worry the most from all the other subjects..mechanics

so what am i doing here blogging instead?..sigh..needed time off..and i think i'm gonna be sick..hopefully i'm wrong..

had this huge ulcer right behind my last tooth..it sucks so badly that i couldn't even eat properly..sigh..after all that's happened to me..

what a really bad thing to start the new year with..sigh..

oh well better go and sleep now and then wake up early tomorrow to study for mechanics the day after..

erm..correction since its already pass 12 midnight..its wake up later in the day and study for tomorrow's test..

~ciao~

2009-01-07T01:52:00.003+08:00

sigh..well there is actually a huge differences between a boyfriend and someone who is actually more than a friend and less than your boyfriend..

and its so obvious that parents would never understand this concept..

always thinking that he's my bf or that i treat him like one..come on..how do you expect me to explain this concept to you when you always think that you know everything and since you're older..you've more experience..don't always think that your time and my time are the same..it's different already..

so the only way i can say is that he is NOT get it NOT my bf..

and yet you still don't believe me..i really give up trying to explain..fine then..since you acknowledge me having a bf that i never know i have..then fine i won't say anything..

i know if you happen to read this after getting my new link..you will sure to think.."if she act this way..she is sure to be lying"..

always wonder why i never tell you anything or what i have in mind?

its really simple..like you would understand!!..i rather keep everything to myself and maybe suffer alone trying to come up with a solution than telling you..i've been keeping lots of things to myself for many years and i still remember every single one of them clearly..

and when you ask me why did i cry that day..it's because of mechanics question..doing mechanics can always make me cry..but your thoughts sure fly to him..its always him, him and him..its been a long long time since i cry because of that reason..it is always other reason that make me cry..

but would you ever listen to all this?..hmph!..i don't think so..

2009-01-03T22:40:00.004+08:00

hmn..nothing much to post about..just staying at home with nothing to do..got bored with going out so often..just plain mafan..

anyway notice why the head is kinda shiny?..cuz they say that if you rub the head, then you will excel in your studies..that why..cuz many ppl would wanna touch only the head for that reason..lol..

~ciao than~

2008-12-30T18:02:00.002+08:00

well..the year 2008 is going to end..a sign of me getting older..lol...

anyway i felt that the begining of this year really sucks..as after spm, i have a really long holiday doing meaningless stuff well not exactly meaningless but well..and getting bored while waiting to get into a uni or coll..i still remember that time very well..lol..

but after all that, mine time spend in uni is kinda nice, meeting new friends while keeping in touch with the old ones..although i've been complaining how it sucks throughout the 1st sem..

the best part of all is meeting you..oh well..there are some ups and downs..but oh well..hopefully all will end well..i guess..

anyway..what have i been actually doing for the past year? i'm not sure of that myself..it seems that the days pass by really quickly..that sometimes i don't even have enough time to do things that i would love 2 do..

sigh..not sure what to write anymore..if i write something extra..some people will read it and report it to that someone else..hmn..maybe i should listen to daniel and sohlan doing another private blog to write what i don't 1 others to know..well..like i give a damn..

2008-12-27T16:38:00.003+08:00

argh!! i'm so bored..i dunno what to do..

to download gossip girl ep 18 take too much time..i'm dying to watch it!!!! 93% and still haven't finish...hmph!!

anyway had primary school reunion yesterday..its kinda lame though..so here it is..

didn't take any pictures due to several reasons which you people out there will know after reading the whole post..so nothing interesting here..

anyway it all started when we agree to meet at gsc area in midvalley..so after that we decided to had lunch 1st before doing other stuff..so we had our lunch at mcd..then after that the girls except me decided to do some undergarment shopping..since i've been going shopping for almost the entire week and i don't really fancy the undergarment shopping thing, i decided to join the guys for a movie..we watch a movie called spirit..thought of watching yes man but its full at that time..so no choice

about the movie? 1 word..sucks!!

i've never experience feeling so sleepy while watching a movie before..its like so confusing and even the blood is so fake..i have a really hard time trying to force myself awake just to make sure that i watch every bit of it..so that i don't waste my money..but really..its not worth a cent..and i can't believe that this kind of thing can be put in cinemas..its just a useless piece of crap..

after that horrible movie..the guys decided to play pool..i've no choice but to join them since the rest of the girls have an emergency situation and have to go home..oh well..at least have a bit of fun there..

than went to starbucks at borders to chat..but i gotta go at that time..so i didn't stay to chat..

anyway conclusion..its kinda lame..i bet you people out there might think so after you read this..

~ciao~

Merry Christmas!!!

2008-12-25T12:33:00.002+08:00

I'm dreaming of a white Christmas....

Its another great season of the year..

MERRY CHRISTMAS PEOPLE!!

enjoy!!

Fantastic 4??..

2008-12-21T00:18:00.003+08:00

according to the above title..lol..i know it sounds kinda silly..but that what we called ourselves..or rather can be consider as self proclaimed..lol..actually i never ever think that the 4 of us will get this close..sharing secrets, problem and other stuffs..well..it all started when i stayed over at navia's room for a week..and we started our group studying..it still amazed me till now that in a week's time, the 4 of us can be really close..maybe its because we share similiar well..um problems..or maybe something else that bring the 4 of us together..

anyway lets start by showing our group picture..its only 1 picture though..

this picture is taken in front of the uni's fountain..its something rare right?..it quite a nice background..lol..

anyway the guy on the left is daniel..he is kind of a retard when he is with sohlan, which is the guy on the right..lol..they argue most of the time..well..i think..keep asking me to do a cupcake for him with his name on it after i showed him a picture of it when he told me he was hungry..i regreted it now..but he always gives me advise on well...certain things that i don't want to mention here..

ok lets jus move on to sohlan..although he is a year younger than all of us, but sometimes i feel that the way he thinks is even more mature than us 18 year olds..he always calms people down especially me when i tend to feel really stress out before a test..always telling us to relax and stuff..lol..

and finally the indian girl beside me, navia..although she always act like a childish girl, but she is a really good friend and someone to turn to whenever i need advise..although she herself have a lot of well..unfortunate events happening in her life, but for most of the time, she would always remain her usual self..but navia..no matter how good a friend you are to me..Edward Cullen is still MINE!!..lol..the only thing we argue about is who Edward Cullen belongs to..lol...

well..that pratically sums up everything..i'm really lucky to have found the 3 of them in uni..although i know..um most of the time i kinda like left them some place for someone..sorry guys..

~ciao~

2008-12-13T14:39:00.004+08:00

hoho..time to let out my frustration and anger..

and this time i'm so not gonna feel guilty due to some people having a possibility of reading it..i don't give a damn..do what you want..you have a choice not to read it..its really simple..just follow one step..

click the "X" button at the top of the browser..and i don't have to show you a picture of it right?

i really wonder sometimes..do i have this special aura that only will attract guys who suck? or maybe its just me being attracted to this kind of guys..

I REALLY HAD ENOUGH!!

its like i only seem to have jerks in my life..could things get any better in the future?..

in just a matter of weeks i would be celebrating my 3rd year anniversary of being single..*cheers*

i thought of giving it a try one more time before deciding on anything..turns out it still sucks anyway..

plus..i'm in the mood to really fool around this time..let me enjoy the fun of it..wonder what it feels like..not being serious..hmn..

i'm gonna spend my time only looking at Edward Cullen..he is mine!!

2008-12-10T16:48:00.002+08:00

sigh...what should i do?..i really have no idea..

its actually surprising that i put up my courage just to ask what i've been wanting to ask god knows since when..

fine..i think yesterday indeed was full of surprises..

i know no matter how the choice is mine..am i really that dense..to not notice till my friends told me...am i?

i did anticipate your answer to my question..i guess wendy is right after all..from the very beginning..

i knew it for so long and yet why do i feel that i have to hold on to it?..am i that desperate?..i'm just clueless..

what should i do?..i really can't think of anything right now..my mind blank..

i won't decide anything for now..but when the time comes..i know just the right thing to do..

my career comes first..

Oral presentation...

2008-12-09T13:37:00.004+08:00

phew..at last..my oral presentation is OVER!!!..yay!!..can celebrate..

was so nervous..i could die...i don't even know what i was talking about during my presentation..i just go blank...n was like ok never mind..lets go to the next slide...

comments?

my lecturer say my slide was good and that she can actually see where i was heading to..but i was nervous..sigh...

wonder how much i would get..hopefully it would be good..

oh well..gotta do my IT assignment now..and my english also..gotta hand the self access file next week and i haven't do anything yet..

~ciao~..

During EMA class..

2008-12-05T17:12:00.033+08:00

Got bored of doing oral presentation slide and lab report..so i decided to blog..

yes during EMA class..we, students have so much time in our hands or rather got bored with the lecturer..so we took lots of pic in class..lol..and guess what? most of us sat right in front..

here are the pictures that we took

let me start by introducing my 'family'..in case you people out there are wondering..i have a small little family over there..lol..it all started from joshua and sohlan started calling me popo (grandma)..swtness..

so yes i'm the grandma and the head of the family..

The one on the left is my grandson, jason and on the right is the nanny that i employed to take care of him, sohlan..

this guy here is actually suppose to be my 'grand son-in-law' that i'll never approve, joshua..he is jason's 'bf' lol..and on the right is my good friend navia..well this picture actually suppose to look like they were a couple..but i'm sitting next to navia and it is difficult to find a better angle..

but..it looks more like he is interested and she is avoiding..lol..

i wanted to take what the class looked like..but jason looked at the camera..so attempt 1 failed..

arr..attempt 2 looks so much better..i called him to look the other way..

must be thinking that the class haven't start yet..because everyone looked as if there is no lecturer in the class..

but the real fact..

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he IS in the class..our EMA lecturer a.k.a. sleeping pill as what navia called him..

the picture is kinda blur..cuz my hands were shaking..shall we continue?

over here is jason and esdelyn..

me and navia..

another attempt taken by sohlan from behind..but failed..they don't look like a couple at all like this..

oh look..the sleeping pill is really effective..one person is down already..and i'm almost there also but couldn't because i sat in front..sob..

joshua again..dunno taken by who..hmph..i still don't approve him..he give a very bad example to my 'grandson'..

lol..daniel..was taken when he was talking to lin chong..so the picture ended up like this..haha..

jason and gabriel..oh ya..and ern yik..i think..with his back facing the camera..

lol..look at this picture..its not on purpose though..it just coincidentally jason was showing his finger when the picture was taken..lol..we were are laughing..and sohlan was like..why did you go and spoil the picture?..and the 1 next to sohlan is lin chong..

thats all for my post today..it was really fun to be with them..getting crazy and all..

ciao~

2008-12-05T01:32:00.004+08:00

"K..i fail terribly..need sum time off"

i'm in a really bad mood now..i really hate it..why can't you just tell me your marks?..is there a problem?...and yes i understand that u need time off and i intend to give you some..but i'm concern for you and you don't reply me at all?..

what the F**KING hell do you want?

i don't care about my usage of words anymore..it is just really annoying..

i know you study really hard compare to me who actually only study days before the exam and yet i got higher marks than you..but that doesn't mean anything okay?! you yourself got so tense up and ended up blanking out in the exam..now is that my fault?

i'm so damn frustrated right now that i'm crying..i'm already reaching to a certain point where i don't care anymore..do what you want..its none of my business..after all i'm not your personal assistant..i'm just an ordinary girl whom you know and that i'm nothing to you..

i don't even know who you are anymore..what happen to the you whom i fall for? who or rather what am i to you? what is our status?

don't you realise that i always hesitate when it comes to you suddenly being nice to me?..i really don't know what to do..it like it is a rare thing nowadays..there are a lot of things that i wanted to tell you..but i always hesitate..thinking of your reaction..but i ended up not doing it..cuz i don't know when you are nice or when you just neglect me..

i know i said that it didn't matter..but if i were to say otherwise..i;m afraid that it will turn into an argument..i'm so afraid that i would argue with you that nowadays when ever i feel like telling you off..i just suppress that feeling..

i really don't care anymore..i really feel like ending this..i really hate to suffer..

i might not be able to do all that..its too late anyway..

2008-12-04T12:27:00.002+08:00

first of all..i'm so sorry that i did not do a full length post on sunday..was staying at uni for the past week due to the rest of my family going to macau for holidays and i have no choice but to stay here because of all the test..

was enjoying watching the anime that daniel gave me that i forgotten to blog..lol...

got lots of movie for the weekend..yes..parents not at home..can enjoy..lalala~..

and get to spend some time with him..plus celebrated his birthday also..lol..can't really say celebrate..just went out and eat dinner with his housemates..

they were teasing him so much..lol..i pratically act that i don't know..till when one of them talked about something about their trip to langkawi..i felt my face burning remembering something..luckily there are not many street light on the road to uni that it was really dark..

enjoyed my time here although i will be going back today..sobs...its really nice having group study for mechanics..i haven't been sleeping early since sunday..if i'm not here..i'll probably be having trouble doing the tutorial..at least i'm happy that i manage to finish them..

so what am i doin now? when the exam is jus hours away..and i sill got lots of things to revise..sigh..i still never learn..

ok then..i'll sign off now!..

2008-11-30T13:54:00.003+08:00

currently doing my lab report so i can't post much now..i'll post more later at night..

i know ppl out there will wonder, why bother posting a bit now when you can do a full lenght post of the same thing later?..

well..i'm just dying to post out this few words..

Edward Cullen a.k.a. Robert Pattinson is HOT!!

and another thing..

Jasper Hale a.k.a. Jackson Rathbone looks kinda hot in the baseball suit..even though i only manage to catch a glimpse in the movie..

well..more details later..lol..gotta do some packing later too..

2008-11-26T17:10:00.003+08:00

yes!!..i finish my moral assignments..1 thing off my mind for now..but..friday will be the day i..oh well..its CHEMISTRY mid term..argh!! left one more topic and what the hell am i doing now?..blogging and was watching anime earlier..gosh..i still never learn right?..

didn't even listen in IT class..was practically watching Midori Days..hoho..what to do..couldn't resists after hearing that my friend had madagascar 2..call him to give it to me..and end up he told me that his pendrive also have midori days..so..argh..mellisa you've gotta STOP and STUDY!!!....

have oral presentation today..although my turn is not up yet..but..OMG!! the guys today are good...and they are making me feel scared that i won't be able to present it as good as them..gosh!! i'm amazed..

my friend told me something about someone..it wasn't nice and i was kinda shock..i mean to actually think that...ok STOP!!..gotta control..i'm afraid that i would tell him..and he is kinda close with that person..but what am i thinking?..i mean i can't judge a person just by listening to one side of the story..but..no no no ENOUGH!!..i'll end my post now..

got dance class later..ciao!!

Can I Have This Dance

2008-11-23T01:49:00.001+08:00

Got addicted to it..it sounds sweet..

[Gabriella]
Take my hand, take a breath
Pull me close and take one step
Keep your eyes locked on mine,
And let the music be your guide.

[Troy, Gabriella]
Won't you promise me (now won't you promise me, that you'll never forget)
We'll keep dancing (to keep dancing) wherever we go next

(chorus)
It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance

[Troy]
Take my hand, I'll take the lead
And every turn will be safe with me
Don't be afraid, afraid to fall
You know I'll catch you threw it all

[Troy, Gabriella]
And you can't keep us apart (even a thousand miles, can't keep us apart)
'Cause my heart is (cause my heart is) wherever you are

(chorus)
It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance

[Gabriella And Troy]
Oh no mountains too high enough, oceans too wide
'Cause together or not, our dance won't stop
Let it rain, let it pour
What we have is worth fighting for
You know I believe, that we were meant to be

(chorus)
It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you (like you)
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do (way we do)
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance
Can I have this dance
Can I have this dance

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i really don't know how to answer your question yesterday..but..what i said was true..it really depands..till now..sometimes i feel like letting go..sometimes its like you're using me (it could maybe be due to my experience that i'm thinking that way)..there are times where you treat me differently like really cold and times where you're suddenly sweet and nice..

as to what you asked..i really don't know who you are to me..i should have asked..who am i to you?

i'm really confuse..

2008-11-16T02:13:00.003+08:00

sigh..don't know what is wrong with me these days..guess i got depressed all of a sudden..there are times where i felt that i couldn't control myself..like i finally snap from something..really don't know whats wrong with me on friday..i just suddenly felt like breaking down all of a sudden..and imagine in front of a class with about 70 plus people!!..i guess its all cuz of the word jealousy..maybe..

have to find sources for the next english test..and i've chosen the title jealousy..well wanna know why?..its cuz this is what i've been feeling for the pass few days..i really felt dissapointed in myself..i always thought that i'll have a better self-control..i mean who wouldn't feel jealous? i'm sure you people out there will feel jealous of certain things..

i did feel jealous before but not to the limit of wanting to break down..this has never happen before..so why now?..sigh..gotta work on my self-control..

2008-11-14T15:52:00.002+08:00

Damn..damn..damn..*cursing..*

have moral test today..totally freak out..don't really understand the questions at all..and i blackout..couldn't remember a term for the definition..crap..

sigh..lots of work to do right now..so why am i still blogging?..

my check list..

-reader response 1 (my class just receive it last wednesday..so slow..)
-lab report
-moral assignment
-moral presentation
-maths tutorial
-mechanics tutorial
-electricity and magnetism tutorial
-chemistry tutorial
-lab report for english assesment
-self access file
-oral presentation slide
-IT assignment

hmn..i think thats about all..or did i miss something..sigh...too many till i also forget what else that i have to do..

2008-10-31T11:12:00.002+08:00

i almost forgot..but how could i?..its my favourite time of the year..

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!

cute huh?..

too bad halloween in malaysia is like....just maybe a few places which organises parties..but..there is no fun at all if there is not 'treat or trick' from door to door dressing up in costumes..sigh..

2008-10-31T10:57:00.007+08:00

well..since i have some free time now..its time to blog again..or someone will come after me telling me to update..*rolling the eyes*..

watch a drama yesterday..got attracted to the fact that a character in the movie is very good at ballet..that really brings back memories..i used to be in her shoes..but ever since the ballet school close..i never continue..

i used to complain everytime when i have to attend the class..but now..after seeing the lady dancing perfectly..how i wish i was in her shoes..i realised that i really do miss dancing with those cute little shoes..and never get the chance at trying to tip toe..

i always wanted these..but i never get the chance to get one..since i'm on the very basic level..*teary eye*..

i do remember that at one time..i used to love dancing..during primary school..i would always grab a chance to do a performance with a group of friends..

the weird part..all that died out when i went to high school..

and currently i got pulled back by the fact that i'm gonna join the dancing club..due to the wonderful latin trial class that got me attracted..lol..just wondering when will my mind turn the other way round again..

2008-10-29T22:38:00.005+08:00

gosh!!..it has been a really long time since i post anything here..well..can't blame me..life is getting tough these days..with lots of work to do..could hardly even have time for myself to enjoy *coughcough*..erm..well..its more like "doing" my work..while i ___ well..i'm sure you people out there can guess...hehe..

well the good part..i just found ANOTHER target..YES!!..this time..in my maths class..hoho..description..erm..well..tall..kinda cute..etc etc..just..*blush*

OMG!! whats gotten into me?..*mouth open in horror*..scary..

*gotten crazy for not putting up a post for some time*

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you were really cute that day..looking tired while rubbing your eyes..its just..*heart stops*..like a little kid who looks really tired..*squeals* cute cute cute!! don't really get why you deny it though..but well..its my business to think that way..after all..its MY thought that counts..not yours..

all this just remind me of this:

Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized
So mesmerized
And I've just got to know
*David Archuleta - Crush*

2008-10-16T19:19:00.004+08:00

no classes today and tomorrow...yes!!..free for 2 days..but its kinda boring though..

did some tutorial questions..gosh..trigonometry is driving me crazy!!!..i totally don't get it at all..and your writing doesn't help..it take me awhile to understand what you are writing..

and doing mechanic does not help either..got stuck at 1st question..then manage to solve it and got stuck again at the 3rd question..

i gonna go crazy if this continues...

2008-10-15T14:28:00.002+08:00

blisters on both of my feet..

a burn mark right on my leg..

gosh so many marks..my mum says that it will take about a week to heal..sigh..i vow not to where a brand new shoe without breaking it first..

and as for the burn mark, well..i got it when i was ironing while thinking bout..oh well u know...

hope those will heal soon..

Steps?..

2008-10-13T12:14:00.004+08:00

* post deleted *

just wrote it out of fustration..

work work and work

2008-10-11T12:00:00.003+08:00

just the first week of the 2nd sem and lots of assignments and tutorials are pouring in..the worst of all is english and moral studies..

have to do an oral presentation..i thought that will all pass when high school is over..

topic: a) An exciting new invention or
b) An interesting technical/manufacturing process

what a topic..moreover the lecturer told us to choose something that we are familiar with..or risk getting lower marks and more comments from her..sigh..more eye contact, no "dancing" around, slower speed in talking etc..

moral studies on the other hand..oh well..just read my topic and judge by yourself..

topic: 19. a) Describe Muhammad's life and the major events that shaped Islam.
b) Describe the Muslim view of God.

gosh..i thought i was over that too once high school is over..who would ever think that it will be in one of the topics in moral studies..imagine MORAL...

when i got that topic i was like..

me: Not again..Why me?

others: You are so lucky. Its so easy!

Sin Yee: Look, she got such an easy topic!

me: ...

2008-10-10T18:35:00.002+08:00

sigh..in the past few days..i've become more and more depressed..how did that actually happen?!?!..everywhere i go..most of the classes that i have seems to have full of memories..memories that i dare not remember..i even sat at that the usual place without knowing it..my mind is totally in a mess now..i don't even know which track is my mind turning to right now..

i rather you tell me what's wrong than keeping me in the dark..i don't care what your reasons are anymore..at least it will tell me what to do..

2008-10-08T15:11:00.004+08:00

i'm still confuse..i still don't know what do you actually want..there are times where i really don't want to go on anymore..but..i still can't do it in the end..it hurts not to know..it hurts being like this..

2008-10-07T12:33:00.004+08:00

the start of the new semester is finally here..

*waiting to hear some screams of joy*

.......*none*

i should be really happy that i don't have to rot at home anymore...but why didn't i feel that way..weird..

this 2 days is really very tiring..i did not enjoy it even a bit..when i reach home...i feel really tired..it is as though i do not have enough sleep even if i had slept for hours..and i don't have any appetite for lunch these days..just wondering how am i going to explain the money that i did not touch at all to buy me any lunch..sigh...

and i dyed my hair again..well its suppose to be brown..but now it look like orange under the light.. dunno what happen..

( i should and will leave you alone..and i would not bother anymore.. )

signing off for now..

2008-09-12T23:29:00.005+08:00

its been kinda long since i last post something here..

well..was going through the pictures in my camera..and i spotted a picture of me which look like a small kid..oh well..maybe a little i guess..

let me go and look for it now...

*searching through the files*

*looking for it in the pendrive*

found it!!

i do look like a kid stuck in between my "older" siblings..